I thought I was prepared for anything

But apparently I wasn't. Ultrasound couldn't find anything, anywhere. Not in the uterus, not in the adnexa, not in the tubes....nothing, nowhere. We still don't know what's going on but it's not good. And it means this is my third loss. It's weird to think how much I love(d) this baby, when there's not even a sac. I loved my first 2 babies too, and they were empty sacs. It's like my body can't even make an actual embryo.

I feel like a failure. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through this one.